The Time I Got Blocked by Tom & Lorenzo

Sometimes I think about how many Americans have died from this virus. Sometimes I think about how this vaccine rollout has been corrupted and mishandled so much that it feels like an anecdote you'd hear from a Soviet defector in the 80s. Sometimes I think about how the most venal and craven GOP senators and representatives spent years leveraging lies and wackadoo conspiracy theories in service to their naked power grab and now those crazy conspiracists are holding actual elected office as well as the future of representative democracy in their nutty, nutty hands.

And then that all starts to feel too overwhelming and so instead I focus on something I can handle: how I got blocked on Twitter by noted fashion bloggers, Tom & Lorenzo. Please note, this is an extremely stupid thing to worry about.  

Way back in 2004, I came home from drinks with work folks and my husband told me about this really cool show he watched where a guy made a dress from cornhusks. It was this famous dress, by Austin Scarlett, from the 1st season of Project Runway:

We were hooked and became big Project Runway fans. This was back in the days when blogs were everywhere. I miss those days. Everyone was doing recaps and reviews and Television Without Pity was around. If you liked a TV show, you could find ample places to talk about it with other people, get insight, get questions answered etc. 

At that time, Maureen Ryan, who is great, was doing TV critique for The Chicago Tribune and covered Project Runway. In one article, she mentioned the invaluable insight of a blog called Project Rungay.

I hopped over to their site and have been hanging out there since. In the ensuing years, the blog migrated from Project Rungay to Tom & Lorenzo, and the scope expanded well beyond Project Runway. I have been a fan for all those years. I think they're smart and funny, and have great insight into fashion and television and pop culture at large. I love it when they're recapping a show I watch. 

And then, last spring or early summer, I responded to them on Twitter while I was in line at Home Depot. The exchange we had was fairly anodyne, I thought. They said something about not going to restaurants. I replied something about how it was OK if you stayed masked up. They said "lol no." I was frustrated by that response (actually, I was frustrated by Covid 19 and having a husband who had to go to work at restaurants) and so complained about the glibness of that response on my own Twitter, without tagging or referencing them. And then it was my turn to check out.

One day, a couple of days later, someone linked to one of their tweets, and I clicked on it, and saw this:

I was... crushed. 

Lookit. I know that neither Tom nor Lorenzo have the foggiest who I am. I know that this isn't personal. These guys, and I cannot stress this enough, have no idea who I am. I further understand, elementally, being annoyed by someone on the internet. But I am Gen X enough to have really enjoyed being their cool, in-the-know fan. The one to say: "Oh! Tom and Lorenzo? I've been reading them since the Project Rungay days." Someone who always knew they were good - and not some johnny-come-lately poser who only found them during the Mad Men costume posts (those are great, by the way. If you do a Mad Men rewatch, I'd suggest visiting those posts).

Instead, I'm just the the dumb fan they found too tiresome to deal with. 

I have a sensitive internet ego. I really couldn't handle that many people being to talk directly at me with their opinions. I get how overwhelming and annoying that must be. I understand it all. Still, my dumb feelings are hurt.

Which makes me feel even MORE like a dumb, tiresome fan. 

It's such a stupid thing to waste any mental headspace on. But, and this is important, it's a helluva lot easier to focus on than the larger state of the world. Maybe it's like picking at a hangnail to distract myself from a cancer diagnosis, or the increasingly loud rumbles of fascistic white nationalism. 

Regardless, I would have enjoyed their tweets about Bridgerton. 

Hi, It's Me Again

Look, I know it's been a million years and it's not like folks have exactly been clamoring for the return of this dumb blog (or, really, any blog). But I have got to stop talking to myself in the car, even if mobile devices provide plausible deniability that someone else is actually listening to me rant. They do, right? Or is there a TikTok out there called "Crazy white lady speechifying to no one in her Passat?"

I've been listening to the Slate Slow Burn podcast about the Clinton impeachment. At one point, one of the players in the whole gross thing talked about how she supported it since Bill Clinton was disrespecting the same office that Ronald Reagan wouldn't even enter unless he was wearing a jacket.

That was how literary agent Lucianne Goldberg justifies telling Linda Tripp that she was making a good and moral choice to secretly tape her conversations with Monica Lewinsky. I mean, this is rationalization as an art form!

Also: Do you think Goldberg imagines respectful Reagan in his jacket, ignoring the tens of thousands of gay American men dying of AIDS under his watch? How about when he was fine tuning his toxic, racist "welfare queen" myth? Maybe as he was engineering the "trickle down" economic policies that are why we're all gonna have to work until we drop (basically so Jeff Bezos can have $182 billion instead of only $80 billion, like a common dock worker or something!)

The way that so many on the American right perform respectfulness while supporting policy that does deep, sustained damage to real American citizens. I hate it.

It is not all I hate.

In service to my plan to really lean into grumpy middle-aged lady, oh my god, I hate those two damn Aaron Sorkin clips from West Wing and The Newsroom that lefties have been sharing on Al Gore's internet since the day he bestowed it upon us. It's not just that the image of middle-aged men wagging their fingers and hollering at young women irritates me on a molecular level... although it really really does. And it's not my endless frustration with Sorkin's undying conviction that we can only be led from the desert by a good-talking white man. What gets me the most is the sheer number of people who seem to believe it. People who believe that when confronted with their hypocrisy and venality by passionate, honest, and, most importantly, real good-talking white men, the bad guys will be moved to change. They'll stand up like the religiloon Bartlett yelled at. They'll be chagrined like the girl that Jeff Daniels broadly insulted using incredibly sexist language... I'm sorry, I meant to say "the young woman to whom Jeff Daniels told the truth about America."

Y'all. If the ghost of Joseph Welch, bedecked in chains all Jacob Marley style, showed up at his bedside and said "at long last, have you no dignity," Mitch McConnell would sigh, say "it's adorable you think I give a hoot about dignity," tuck his head back into his shell and carry on with whatever evil fucking plan he has to wrest democracy away from American citizens and into the hands of his fellow soulless rapacious American money goblins.

Lookit, I am a big fan of good talking. I love a soaring speech. I'm a pacifist and a coward, but I think that "once more unto the breach" thing would have had me reaching for the nearest broadsword. A good speech inspires people to action, makes them feel less alone in the world, less crazy in their awareness of how scary things are. I come not to bury Sorkin, but to praise him (untrue - I am not a fan, but even he would allow me a wee rhetorical flourish). I love a good speech. But they will move not a single Trump fan and it is dangerously naive to think they will. 

Lucianne Goldberg, and all those obscenely wealthy Republican power brokers are far too comfortable worshipping at the wholly fictional altar of Ronald Reagan and "respect" and "dignity" to be made uncomfortable.  Republican senators have been inoculated against shame. The regular folks who have leaned into Trumpism cannot be pried away from the "fake news" defense. Good speechifying, as much as I love it, will not bring folks who've made a virtue of naked power grabbing into the liberal fold. They're a lost cause.

America is not. I don't believe that we are a lost cause. But we're gonna have to drag those motherfuckers along to progress as they dig in and resist at every turn. We're gonna have to prise their wallets out of a vise grip to make 'em pay their taxes. We cannot talk them into caring.

Also, FWIW, you're probably not actually going to bring a 20 year old into the fold by calling her "sorority girl" and talking about her "accidentally walking into a voting booth." God, I hate that clip.

Next time I come back I'll be less grumpy. Maybe.