tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45080389190877850212024-02-06T23:52:35.334-08:00Shouting Down the WellIf I don't write it down it festers in the brainpan until I find myself driven to bad behavior.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comBlogger722125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-34376626795470141732021-11-20T07:15:00.002-08:002021-11-20T07:16:57.463-08:00The Work<p> Once again, I'm cracking open this musty old blog that died under Trunp. I had this plan to dust it off, exercise my brain in a fun way, and write about how my "not ready for Christmas music" was messing up my enjoyment of Christmas music, Instead...</p><p>Look, that verdict yesterday wasn't surprising - it wasn't just the judge's million pound thumb on the scale, it was the massive weight of American white supremacist authoritarianism and resentment. But it was still enraging. Because we keep talking about the wrong thing!</p><p>I'm tired of giving any air to that weepy, baby-faced fascist. I'm tired of the American media endlessly trying to humanize him - a person whose whole entire raison d'etre is inextricably tied up in the worship of authoritarianism, in denying the humanity of others. Suffice it to say, you don't walk into public spaces wearing one of those goddamn giant guns without hoping you'll get to use it - they are the most cowardly expression of "patriotism". </p><p>Suffice it to say, I am no longer concerned with the feelings of those who value property over people.</p><p>But I know so much about that fucking strapped-up authoritarian asshole. And when I do a google on Anthony Huber, I can find out he had a daughter and he loved skateboarding, I guess. JoJo Rosenbaum had some mental health issues. Jacob Blake had a knife ... in the car, not on him. But I guess, still? Derek Chauvin is in jail, so George Floyd's murder is all taken care of, I guess? </p><p>We have to stop bending to the narrative shifts that distract us. </p><p>I don't think I'm being histrionic when I say we are teetering on the edge of fascism. This is not about squishy white guilt. This is not about getting a cookie for being <i>woke</i> (god, I hate that word). This is about how every white person in America knows (and likely loves) someone who embraces an increasingly violent, racist, authoritarian ethos and we stay <i>polite</i> about it. We all know how the Nazis happened now. We're living it. </p><p>So this is my exhortation to the Whites - every single one of us needs to be keeping our own houses tidy. We have to call fascism by its name, reject Trumperism in all its formats. Show up at school board meetings, vote in every election, donate money where we can, and, most importantly, tell the people we love that we will not stand for white supremacy in our homes, no matter how inconvenient that is.</p><p>Maybe start here. Here's one neat trick. Tell the people you love that if they won't say it in front of a Black person, then they shouldn't say it in front of you. Because, white people, we all have to admit we've let things pass in the interest of keeping the peace, of avoiding the awkward. But we all need to stop being safe white spaces; we need to do whatever we can to urge the people we love to think about their own reactionary, unexamined racism. </p><p>There's so much work to be done and it all needs to be done by white people, in white places; where we're not performing it for Black people. It's not about a baby-faced assassin with a permanent hard-on for the police. It's about all the ways we abet a slide into fascism by allowing its white supremacist roots simply to go unremarked on.</p>megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-17718058293057950112021-01-17T13:57:00.007-08:002021-01-17T15:07:21.443-08:00The Time I Got Blocked by Tom & Lorenzo<p>Sometimes I think about how many Americans have died from this virus. Sometimes I think about how this vaccine rollout has been corrupted and mishandled so much that it feels like an anecdote you'd hear from a Soviet defector in the 80s. Sometimes I think about how the most venal and craven GOP senators and representatives spent years leveraging lies and wackadoo conspiracy theories in service to their naked power grab and now those crazy conspiracists are holding actual elected office as well as the future of representative democracy in their nutty, nutty hands.</p><p>And then that all starts to feel too overwhelming and so instead I focus on something I can handle: how I got blocked on Twitter by noted fashion bloggers, <a href="https://tomandlorenzo.com/">Tom & Lorenzo</a>. Please note, this is an extremely stupid thing to worry about. </p><p>Way back in 2004, I came home from drinks with work folks and my husband told me about this really cool show he watched where a guy made a dress from cornhusks. It was this famous dress, by Austin Scarlett, from the 1st season of Project Runway:</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH253O7iCwD76nylXzP7qWeRsA0pOTnGo87KlDJdoBOLGhyphenhypheneWjFIqbvcD2JwS-owSMIDXu_fhM9E24Xxuxj9H_FJZZfFQJvcRgrcBa0QzG0rKJO7aUouJCGz8KbWCHBNMhAb60xRpPS0nh/s1080/Screen+Shot+2021-01-17+at+2.56.44+PM.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1080" data-original-width="752" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH253O7iCwD76nylXzP7qWeRsA0pOTnGo87KlDJdoBOLGhyphenhypheneWjFIqbvcD2JwS-owSMIDXu_fhM9E24Xxuxj9H_FJZZfFQJvcRgrcBa0QzG0rKJO7aUouJCGz8KbWCHBNMhAb60xRpPS0nh/s320/Screen+Shot+2021-01-17+at+2.56.44+PM.png" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">We were hooked and became big Project Runway fans. This was back in the days when blogs were everywhere. I miss those days. Everyone was doing recaps and reviews and Television Without Pity was around. If you liked a TV show, you could find ample places to talk about it with other people, get insight, get questions answered etc. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">At that time, <a href="https://www.moryan.com/">Maureen Ryan</a>, who is great, was doing TV critique for <u>The Chicago Tribune</u> and covered <u>Project Runway</u>. In one article, she mentioned the invaluable insight of a blog called <u>Project Rungay</u>.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I hopped over to their site and have been hanging out there since. In the ensuing years, the blog migrated from Project Rungay to Tom & Lorenzo, and the scope expanded well beyond <u>Project Runway</u>. I have been a fan for all those years. I think they're smart and funny, and have great insight into fashion and television and pop culture at large. I love it when they're recapping a show I watch. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">And then, last spring or early summer, I responded to them on Twitter while I was in line at Home Depot. The exchange we had was fairly anodyne, I thought. They said something about not going to restaurants. I replied something about how it was OK if you stayed masked up. They said "lol no." I was frustrated by that response (actually, I was frustrated by Covid 19 and having a husband who had to go to work at restaurants) and so complained about the glibness of that response on my own Twitter, without tagging or referencing them. And then it was my turn to check out.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">One day, a couple of days later, someone linked to one of their tweets, and I clicked on it, and saw this:</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoLrn9fyUhdQQyGQ07eKi7YznnFYw74B_9vvKVre7OTtoJFzoDC1YELqvLmP4i2n7QgPM2p7NxbisMTw4AaVJSxjzt7QpsQqGeRRW7rCsLyulh0MEOUmS3z_OMVdJzA4eY977Gv251Lr2r/s1358/Screen+Shot+2021-01-17+at+3.11.26+PM.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="988" data-original-width="1358" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoLrn9fyUhdQQyGQ07eKi7YznnFYw74B_9vvKVre7OTtoJFzoDC1YELqvLmP4i2n7QgPM2p7NxbisMTw4AaVJSxjzt7QpsQqGeRRW7rCsLyulh0MEOUmS3z_OMVdJzA4eY977Gv251Lr2r/s320/Screen+Shot+2021-01-17+at+3.11.26+PM.png" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I was... crushed. </div></div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Lookit. I know that neither Tom nor Lorenzo have the foggiest who I am. I know that this isn't personal. These guys, and I cannot stress this enough, <i>have no idea who I am</i>. I further understand, elementally, being annoyed by someone on the internet. But I am Gen X enough to have really enjoyed being their cool, in-the-know fan. The one to say: "Oh! Tom and Lorenzo? I've been reading them since the Project Rungay days." Someone who always knew they were good - and not some johnny-come-lately poser who only found them during the Mad Men costume posts (those are great, by the way. If you do a Mad Men rewatch, I'd suggest visiting those posts).</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Instead, I'm just the the dumb fan they found too tiresome to deal with. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">I have a sensitive internet ego. I really couldn't handle that many people being to talk directly at me with their opinions. I get how overwhelming and annoying that must be. I understand it all. Still, my dumb feelings are hurt.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Which makes me feel even MORE like a dumb, tiresome fan. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">It's such a stupid thing to waste any mental headspace on. But, and this is important, it's a helluva lot easier to focus on than the larger state of the world. Maybe it's like picking at a hangnail to distract myself from a cancer diagnosis, or the increasingly loud rumbles of fascistic white nationalism. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Regardless, I would have enjoyed their tweets about Bridgerton. </div>megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-91964124719392593172021-01-03T13:18:00.001-08:002021-01-17T14:10:04.925-08:00Hi, It's Me Again<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://media.giphy.com/media/5mYwgGvIR2GN2g0ZZj/giphy.gif" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="258" data-original-width="480" src="https://media.giphy.com/media/5mYwgGvIR2GN2g0ZZj/giphy.gif" /></a></div><br /><p>Look, I know it's been a million years and it's not like folks have exactly been clamoring for the return of this dumb blog (or, really, any blog). But I have got to stop talking to myself in the car, even if mobile devices provide plausible deniability that someone else is actually listening to me rant. They do, right? Or is there a TikTok out there called "Crazy white lady speechifying to no one in her Passat?"</p><p>I've been listening to the <a href="https://slate.com/podcasts/slow-burn/s2/clinton" target="_blank">Slate Slow Burn podcast</a> about the Clinton impeachment. At one point, one of the players in the whole gross thing talked about how she supported it since Bill Clinton was disrespecting the same office that Ronald Reagan wouldn't even enter unless he was wearing a jacket.</p><p>That was how literary agent Lucianne Goldberg justifies telling Linda Tripp that she was making a good and moral choice to <i>secretly tape her conversations </i>with Monica Lewinsky. I mean, this is rationalization as an art form!</p><p>Also: Do you think Goldberg imagines respectful Reagan in his jacket, ignoring the tens of thousands of gay American men dying of AIDS under his watch? How about when he was fine tuning his toxic, racist "welfare queen" myth? Maybe as he was engineering the "trickle down" economic policies that are why we're all gonna have to work until we drop (basically so Jeff Bezos can have $182 billion instead of only $80 billion, like a common dock worker or something!)</p><p>The way that so many on the American right <i>perform</i> respectfulness while supporting policy that does deep, sustained damage to real American citizens. I hate it.</p><p>It is not all I hate.</p><p>In service to my plan to really <i>lean into</i> grumpy middle-aged lady, oh my god, I hate those two damn Aaron Sorkin clips from <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f3VHK1NXIBw">West Wing</a> and <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTjMqda19wk" target="_blank">The Newsroom</a> that lefties have been sharing on Al Gore's internet since the day he bestowed it upon us. It's not just that the image of middle-aged men wagging their fingers and hollering at young women irritates me on a molecular level... although it really really does. And it's not my endless frustration with Sorkin's undying conviction that we can only be led from the desert by a good-talking white man. What gets me the most is the sheer number of people who seem to believe it. People who believe that when confronted with their hypocrisy and venality by passionate, honest, and, most importantly, real good-talking white men, the bad guys will be moved to change. They'll stand up like the religiloon Bartlett yelled at. They'll be chagrined like the girl that Jeff Daniels broadly insulted using incredibly sexist language... I'm sorry, I meant to say "the young woman to whom Jeff Daniels told the truth about America."</p><p>Y'all. If the ghost of Joseph Welch, bedecked in chains all Jacob Marley style, showed up at his bedside and said "at long last, have you no dignity," Mitch McConnell would sigh, say "it's adorable you think I give a hoot about dignity," tuck his head back into his shell and carry on with whatever evil fucking plan he has to wrest democracy away from American citizens and into the hands of his fellow soulless rapacious American money goblins.</p><p>Lookit, I am a big fan of good talking. I love a soaring speech. I'm a pacifist and a coward, but I think that "once more unto the breach" thing would have had me reaching for the nearest broadsword. A good speech inspires people to action, makes them feel less alone in the world, less crazy in their awareness of how scary things are. I come not to bury Sorkin, but to praise him (untrue - I am not a fan, but even he would allow me a wee rhetorical flourish). I love a good speech. But they will move not a single Trump fan and it is dangerously naive to think they will. </p><p>Lucianne Goldberg, and all those obscenely wealthy Republican power brokers are far too comfortable worshipping at the wholly fictional altar of Ronald Reagan and "respect" and "dignity" to be made uncomfortable. Republican senators have been inoculated against shame. The regular folks who have leaned into Trumpism cannot be pried away from the "fake news" defense. Good speechifying, as much as I love it, will not bring folks who've made a virtue of naked power grabbing into the liberal fold. They're a lost cause.</p><p>America is not. I don't believe that we are a lost cause. But we're gonna have to drag those motherfuckers along to progress as they dig in and resist at every turn. We're gonna have to prise their wallets out of a vise grip to make 'em pay their taxes. We cannot talk them into caring.</p><p>Also, FWIW, you're probably not actually going to bring a 20 year old into the fold by calling her "sorority girl" and talking about her "accidentally walking into a voting booth." God, I hate that clip.</p><p>Next time I come back I'll be less grumpy. Maybe. </p>megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-78373076903862676722020-02-11T18:23:00.004-08:002020-02-11T18:23:39.602-08:00A Quick StoryMany years ago, I went into work and a guy I worked with asked me, "Is your hair a different color today?"<br />
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"I don't think so," I said. "I used the same stuff I normally do."<br />
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But before I got to the end of the sentence, he and the other guy were already doing that laughing, pointing "gotcha" thing.<br />
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I think about that a lot. You may have no fucking idea how much work it is to overcome default mistrust; to walk around in a body that makes half the world (shit, more than half: internalized misogyny is a thing) assume you're a liar.<br />
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The most pernicious, insidious, everlasting misogyny is the deep, uninterrogated conviction that women lie and cannot be trusted. It rots away everywhere and feels likely to get us another four years of Trump.<br />
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...just in case you were wondering why Elizabeth Warren isn't running away with this thing.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-47468528317549041242019-08-19T17:41:00.002-07:002019-08-19T17:41:27.590-07:00The Lazy Bliss of Subscription ServicesHere is a brief list of the items to which I subscribe:<br />
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<li>Billie Razors (every 3 months)</li>
<li>Quip toothbrush (every 3 months)</li>
<li>L'Oreal Medium Rose Blonde hair dye (every 6 weeks)</li>
<li>L'Oreal Age Perfect Day Cream (monthly)</li>
<li>L'Oreal Revitalift Night Cream (monthly)</li>
<li>Lubriderm Daily Moisturizer Body Lotion (monthly)*</li>
<li>Bert's Bees Makeup Removing Face Wipes (monthly)</li>
<li>St. Ives Radiant Skin Body Wash, 6 bottles (bimonthly)</li>
<li>Listerine Ultraclean Oral Care Antiseptic Mouthwash (bimonthly)</li>
<li>ArtNaturals Organic Moroccan Argan Oil Shampoo and Conditioner Set (bimonthly)</li>
<li>Lady Speed Stick Antiperspirant Deoderant, pack of six (every 4 months)</li>
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Oh, my friends, there is something so soothing about never running out of deodorant - never having that moment where you blindly pop the top off, being to apply and suffer the plastic scraping up your tender underarm. You don't have to make a CVS run today. You never have to make a CVS run again. Amazon is there for you, friends. I'm Doctor Faustus, Bezos is Mephistopheles and my sweatless, scentless armpits are my 24 years.<br />
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The following is a true story: 18 years ago I saw a pretty good production of <u>Mother Courage</u> and have, in the intervening years, frequently pondered how I would get my upper lip de-moustachioed once the wars come.<br />
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Intellectually, I know Mother Courage didn't give a shit about the state of her upper lip. But... still...<br />
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I'm not all that particularly well-groomed. I work from home and so most days, I don't bother with makeup and keep my hair in a ponytail or bun. But the basic maintenance stuff - the care and keeping of me? How will I manage once the apocalypse comes?<br />
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I think about very important things!<br />
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In these dark, parlous times, there's just something comforting about having these products all lined up in a row in my tiny little upstairs hall closet. Sometimes I just stand in front of it and look at the St. Ives and the Lady Speed Stick all lined up next to each other and feel so relaxed.<br />
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I think I need to add floss to my Amazon Subscribe and Save. Oh! And tampons!<br />
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These are magical times we live in. Not sure what kind of magic... but magical nonetheless.<br />
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* This is a lot of moisturizer. I know. I cannot abide dry skin. I know there are people who get out of the shower, towel off and then just get dressed and I do not understand what even is your life. Lotion is wonderful! Get some!<br />
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<br />megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-31446274284386781822019-05-30T16:14:00.000-07:002019-05-31T08:31:13.815-07:00Deep Sighs and Eye Rolls in Toronto's PearsonBackstory: two days of meetings with reluctant Canadians. Readers, your beloved American corporate traveling blogger is pooped to the poop.<br />
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I am in Toronto Pearson. I arrived four hours before my flight was to take off. I was second on the standby list for the earlier flight. The AA gate lady said "You just have to wait." So I waited with two other weary, hopeful would-be stand by flyers. The AA gate lady kept taking calls and discussing the dire situation of some guaranteed flyers with a delayed connection. She kept repeating: "I don't think they're going to make it." Hope reared up in the chests of three weary travelers.<br />
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Right before the door closed, one of the three of us waiting got standby. She told the other two of us "Sorry. It's full now."<br />
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Oh my god, AA Lady! What sick games are you playing?! There was only ever one seat remaining? Your "they're" on the calls referenced <i>one person</i> not a few, And I don't think you were being respectful of a gender non-binary passenger. I think you were fucking with us! Evil woman!<br />
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You held our dreams of an early arrival in the palm of your hand and you toyed with us!<br />
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Respect.<br />
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So I wandered through Duty-Free. Here's the thing about brief work trips to Canada. You get all the little inconveniences of being in another country (your money don't work, your cell phone don't work), but it doesn't feel any different than any other Anywheresville, (North) America. Sure, there's an occasional "aboat." But mostly, we're cut from the same cloth.<br />
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This is probably deeply offensive to Canadians. I would apologize only I didn't make the earlier flight and am not feeling inclined to regional sensitivity.<br />
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So I wondered through Duty-Free where I learned that my math skills are not equal to the task of combatting sticker-shock at Canadian prices. <i>You want SEVENTY dollars for that?!</i> I know it's only <i>*clicks tab to google currency converter*</i> $51 in my money, but it sounds like <i>SEVENTY DOLLARS!</i><br />
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So then I wandered to a bar (shocking) where I learned that at Toronto's Pearson the only bourbon you can get is Knob Creek (<i>YOU WANT $24 for one double bourbon!!). </i> Which was better than in the terrible Hilton Garden Inn in Vaughan, OT, where they only had Maker's Mark and did not even have the good manners to feel bad about that. Maker's Mark is terrible fucking bourbon and if you drink it you should feel bad about yourself. I said it. Fight me. Go to the island of people who buy overpriced bad booze and hang out with a bunch of senselessly smug Grey Goose drinkers.<br />
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So I sat at this bar and ordered a Knob Creek (double. Don't judge me. I DIDN'T GET ON THE EARLIER FLIGHT!) and a glass of ice water. The 60-something lady bartender returned with the bourbon but not the iced water and I said "Can I get that iced water?" And she engaged in the world's most inadvertent deep sigh and eyeroll and said "I know. I'm just getting it."<br />
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Did I get my dander up?! You bet I did! I (silently... never piss off the bartender) got my dander up and engaged in an internal diatribe railing against that inadvertent deep sigh and eyeroll.<br />
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Dander determinedly still up, I decided that since I had all this time to kill, I should probably do some work*. I opened my laptop, logged onto a VPN and then an RDP session at which point a Windows OS had the rank AUDACITY to ask me for a password.<br />
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Obviously, I let loose a deep sigh and an inadvertent eyeroll.<br />
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And now I feel a deep kinship with this bartender.<br />
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The world is fucking exhausting and people (and operating systems) are always requiring us to be polite in the face of dumb things and we really all just deserve to sit on comfortable couches and watch endless reruns of <i>Schitt's Creek</i> while drinking lovely cocktails and, I don't know, probably snuggling a cat or a cute little dog or something and instead we just have to keep smiling through all this nonsense!<br />
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I really thought I'd slide into the second half of my life as a lady who offered wisdom and kindness. I pictured myself a disseminator of pearls of wisdom, hugs and auntuncular (THERE IS NO FEMALE EQUIVALENT TO AVUNCULAR GODDAMMIT PATRIARCHY!) enthusiasm. I may still be that lady.<br />
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But I cannot stop myself from the deep sighs and the eyerolls. I have earned them.<br />
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Also, Woodford Reserve which should be available at every airport bar in North America!<br />
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Goddammit, Toronto's Pearson!<br />
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*I did not do any work. Instead I wrote in this dumb blog. It's way more fun.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-73180453580837951632019-05-21T17:04:00.003-07:002019-05-21T17:04:59.617-07:00David Byrne Thinks I'm Doing Fine, right?I have a pretty good job. I work from home which means the days when I wear a bra are outnumbered by the days when I do not, which is amazing. Also, I like most of the people I work with; they're nice and funny and smart and come up with clever and interesting ways to do get the work done and to keep the ship moving. It's nice.<br />
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But it's still corporate America. It's still all that shit. It's still emails and calls with people who think that sounding less human makes you sound more professional; it's still the bleak, nagging, constant awareness that the men (always men) a few professional tiers above me are barely aware I exist beyond whatever potential I have to increase or decrease a bottom line.<br />
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And so, no matter how much fun I have with my colleagues, no matter what little successes I enjoy, on the daily, I'll find myself poring over a string of text in a log file or entering my 90th minute on a conference call and suddenly...<br />
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I like to think there are people out there enjoying professional lives in which they, also on the daily, stop and think "Yes. This. This is exactly what I'm meant to be doing." But I also know that even if you have the most fabulous career... even if you're an alpaca farmer or a dolphin trainer or an astronaut... you still have moments like:<br />
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megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-73235792015479571502019-05-01T16:49:00.001-07:002019-05-01T17:43:56.684-07:00But Why are the Big Stories?I click over to <i>The Chicago Tribune </i>on the daily because, frankly, no one is better at weather than Tom Skilling. I'm pretty sure Tom Skilling doesn't so much report on the weather as he controls it (magic!). Back in the old Streeter's days, my lunchtime crowd was often made up of construction dudes who would demand that I turn on the WGN news so they could check with "SkilletHead" about the weather. "Skillethead is always right," they told me. They were not wrong.<br />
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Fun fact: Tom Skilling is Jeffrey Skilling's brother. If you don't know who Jeffrey Skilling is, congratulations on forgetting about the Bush years - but seriously, you should remember the Bush years because they were terrible and instructive of how Trump is a symptom of the evils inflicted on this country and the world at large by movement conservatism and getting rid of him will not fix everything; in fact, it won't fix much of anything. We have to do it, but don't kid yourself that a Trunp-free America will soon be anywhere near what America had oughta be.<br />
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(Man, it'll be nice, though, to see the back of the lying loudmouth tacky tacky tacky old racist misogynist. Pick your candidates, volunteer, knock on doors. Engage.)<br />
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Anyhoo - back to the <i>Trib.</i> They also have good food critics and theater critics and some good OpEd writers. But I refuse to subscribe to them because they endorsed Gary Johnson in 2016. Gary Who? Gary Not Hillary Clinton, I'm sure, was all the hoary old conservatives manning (word choice intentional) the Trib editorial board cared about.<br />
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So they get no money of mine; but I do return, on the daily, to find out what old SkilletHead says is comin' down the weather pike or what Chris Jones thinks about whatever play I might be checking out. And I always start on the front page.<br />
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The Trib has been flogging two stories on that front page for what feels like forever (this is how time works now). One of them is the Jussie Smollett thing. We'd all be better off letting Jussie Smollett fade into obscurity. I believed him when the story first broke. Turns out he was lying. But this doesn't mean there isn't a huge surge in right-wing violence in America. It doesn't mean the CPD is suddenly a paragon of professionalism and public service. It feels less substantial as a celebrity scandal than the Varsity Blues thing.<br />
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Their other story du jour is that terrible, TERRIBLE story about the Crystal Lake couple that murdered their 5 year old son. That is such a tragic, horrifying, upsetting story. But I also don't get why it remains front page news. Those two should die in jail - what more is there to say about it? I guess there's an argument that the bigger story is how the system failed that little boy - but it sure does feel like the paper is trotting out the pictures of those two monsters for us to gawk at and feel superior to (lord, is a lower bar possible?).<br />
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Earlier today, I clicked over to the Trib on my way to find out if it'd be raining tomorrow (it will) and saw a breaking news post about William Barr deciding to skip the House Judiciary Hearing. "Can he just do that?" I wondered. But I had some work to do and figured I'd come back to that later.<br />
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Until two or three minutes ago, I thought <i>The Grey Album</i> was lost to me forever since that server and that CD and my iPod are all long gone, daddy, gone but then I remembered there was an internet. Sometimes I forget. But there is an internet and nothing ever goes away from the internet so I am currently <a href="https://soundcloud.com/blainepwilson/sets/danger-mouse-the-grey-album" target="_blank">listening</a> to <i>The Grey Album</i>.<br />
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I should probably keep on with a theme here and talk about the ethics of all of this but I spend so much time worried about the ethics of things and Jay-Z and the Beatles and Danger Mouse are all fine. They're fine. Well, a couple of the Beatles are dead and I really haven't heard much from Danger Mouse in a while, but according to Wikipedia this is because I am old and out of touch and not because he is not enjoying a fulsome, rewarding career (I may have put some words in Wikipedia's mouth there).<br />
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Since all of the parties involved in <i>The Grey Album</i> who still walk the earth seem to be fine, I'll instead tell you about this Jay-Z-esque moment of clarity I had today. It was amazing. Listen up:<br />
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I had a frustrating morning professionally. They happen. I sent an email expressing frustration which was received poorly and the fellow who had the poor reception made sure to CC some people who are routinely mad at me on the castigating response so everyone could focus on how I'm an asshole rather than the problem. This is my interpretation. You can't have it. It's mine.<br />
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I was angry. But I was also worried and upset that people were mad at me.<br />
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Shortly after, I went to walk the dogs and to ruminate on this. Almost as soon as I was out the door, the anger was completely unseated by the worry and upset and I was braced to spend the walk (and most of the rest of the day and much of the night) consumed with "you stupid bitch" regret and desperate mental gymnastics trying to conjure up a way to make everyone not mad at me. Instead, all of the sudden, somewhere between Bunker's and Ginger's poops, this thought flew into my brain: <i>I don't really have to care that these people are mad at me</i>. I just like that decided not to accommodate my practically pathological need to be liked.<br />
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See, I have a lifelong problem with needing people to like me.<br />
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Lookit: I am a woman who is well aware of all the ways in which I am goddamn fucking replete in character flaws. I have a whole bunch of 'em and I could quite easily delineate them to you (sometimes it's how I get myself to sleep). I have many of these because I am a human person and we all have a host of 'em. If we didn't have a host of character flaws, no one would like us because we'd be robots and not cool interesting robots like in W<i>estworld </i>or <i>Battlestar Galactica</i>. Boring ones like the ones who took all the factory jobs like a bunch of dickhead robots.<br />
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So there are a lot of ways that I don't mind being a normal flawed human person. But this fear of offense, this need to be liked, is really not great, Bob.<br />
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And because I've been this way for so long, I've sort of accepted that I yam who I yam and stopped trying to stop trying to make sure everyone likes me.<br />
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And then, just like that, I decided "there's not really a whole goddamn lot I can do about this so I'm just going to move on." And then, you know what, <i>I moved on</i>.<br />
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(You guys visit my increasingly rare posts in search of bland visionboard style life style advice, right?)<br />
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I do pretty well with the first three. I like my morning visits to the gym and I can't stand for my house to be untidy and, well, they make me do stuff at work. But the fourth one is taxing my limited energy sources. I would really like to finish a work day around 6:00 or 7:00, have a glass of wine and read a book and then read a little more in the tub and then watch some TV (there's just so much) and then go to bed.<br />
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God I love bed. Don't you? Isn't it just the best place ever?<br />
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Anyway, I'm going to blather on here in an attempt to be a little creative today. This counts! I am creating a blog post!<br />
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Sometimes I think about <u>Ghostbusters</u>. As one does. But not about the stuff you're probably thinking of. Do you remember the scene where Sigourney Weaver comes into her apartment and she's wearing aerobics kit and she's carrying a single bag of groceries and it's a dark out and it's in New York City?<br />
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That scene was so aspirational for me! I imagined being a cool big city person and I'd go to aerobics and then come home and get ready to go out and I was pretty sure that there wasn't actually an ancient Sumerian god named Juul who would thwart whatever glamorous evening plans I have.<br />
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Now I am like every trite, cliched middle-aged dumbass internet mommy blogger type person because the idea of going out after a work day? When there's a hot bath and a good book and all that TV and my bed just right there?<br />
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But a particularly disappointing madness.<br />
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I want to want to finish work and then go to aerobics (I kinda miss aerobics) and then bring a single bag of groceries (eggs, milk and a six pack of coke, if I recall correctly) and then put on some cool dress and then go out for the evening and look like Sigourney Weaver and not get assaulted and then turned into a dog by an ancient Babylonian (Sumerian was right, wasn't it) god.<br />
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But I don't want to do any of that. I want thick socks, a good book, a hot bath and to catch up on HBO's <u>Barry</u>.<br />
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I wonder if I'd be as fascinating as Sigourney Weaver if I'd settled in big city New York rather than big city Chicago?<br />
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Last thought: I never wanted to go out with Venkman. I was always definitely a Spengler girl. How cute was young Harold Ramis?<br />
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I made bread on January 4th and that went pretty well so I decided to buy a sifter. It was $6.36 and I used it when I made some killer biscuits last weekend. I declare this... I mean, I Declare this: <b><i>not that stupid</i></b>.</div>
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Did you see how long I went without buying anything stupid? How impressed are you? I'm VERY impressed with myself. Now, what did I buy on January 18th:</div>
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360 biodegradable poop bags for $15.99. Gurl, that is 100% not stupid. That's the definition of a wise purchase. I am a good and virtuous person who picks up the dog poop in biodegradable bags which she buys in bulk in order to maximize cost efficiency. Winner! </div>
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Great. Now all you bitches know my bra size. Whatever. But, here's the thing, I had two good bras and one of them died on a work trip. Just fell apart. Underwire everywhere. I was going to buy another new bra at Soma or someplace good, but instead I bought the cheap one, which is... fine. You may wonder why a grown woman only has two bras. I work from home, motherfuckers. I am able to eschew the daily bra! So, I have two bras; I exhausted one and then replaced it on the cheap. I am KILLING Don't Buy Stupid Shit January! </div>
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Basic pet maintenance. I'm still the very best at Don't Buy Stupid Shit January! </div>
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Uh oh. There are two coming tomorrow?</div>
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This is empirically a little stupid. But it's only $13 of stupid and my neighbor has one and he loves it and there was also a Medium post that recommended it to me via email, describing it as the Best Tech Purchase of 2018 and so they're definitely spying on me. Still, only $13. But also... a little stupid:</div>
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Did I buy something stupid today? On the last day of Don't Buy Stupid Shit January? Did I entirely fold and buy something I almost definitely do not need and which is also sort of stupid?</div>
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You know what, Rachel? You don't need to judge me. It was less than $25 AND IT HAS POCKETS! (How, do you think, do pockets work in a scarf?) If I love it you're all gonna feel real stupid for judging me for buying something stupid on the last day of Don't Buy Stupid Shit January.</div>
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You guys have any thoughts on what I should Declare for February? Maybe Don't Eat Stupid Shit? I'm taking recommendations, but don't be a-holes about it. It's still Give People A Break 2019!!!!</div>
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Ooh, excellent idea, Rachel! I Declare next month Bring Back Dope 80s Slang February. Who's in?!</div>
megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-85207192183704263202019-01-29T17:13:00.000-08:002019-01-29T17:13:08.555-08:00Another One for My White People!Hello, my fellow white people! I come at you from my very own living room where the heat is working and I am watching <i>Friends</i>. I've been thinking about Ross a lot lately. Ross was terrible, right? But David Schwimmer was hilarious. I do enjoy this show. Despite all of the way it's problematic, <i>Friends </i>is still pretty great.<br />
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That said, if the lack of PoC and alllllllll the gay panic are too much for you, here is a handy mechanism for employing your white privilege in a very specific way:<br />
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Sadly, I'm going to have to step away from <i>Friends</i> for a moment to talk about something uncomfortable. Race. More specifically, racism.<br />
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I've been hearing a lot that you can't call all Trump supporters racists. It's just dumb! And Rude! Here's Chris Cillizza on the topic:<br />
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I had to trawl through his Twitter to find that. I can't stand Chris Cillizza. I'll be in this mode for the next 20 minutes:<br />
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I've heard it from Jake Tapper and Joe Scarborough and my own Facebook feed. Look, I don't think 47% of white Americans are racist! That's nuts. I think 99.9% of white Americans are racist. It's kind of hard to avoid when you've been told your whole goddamn life that you are the Normal and everyone else is the Not. We have been socialized to white supremacy in this country. We like to think of white supremacy and racism as white hoods and folks hollering the n-word. But it's so much more pervasive and insidious than that.<br />
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Think of the movies you've watched and the TV shows you've been into. Think about how you feel when you're the only white person in the room. Think about how rarely that's happened! Think about it. Really. Challenge yourself to be as honest as you can.<br />
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See, racism doesn't begin and end with white hoods and the n-word. That stuff is out there (and more so than it used to be due to Dear Leader). But racism is also that casual surprise that someone is smart, that casual suspicion that someone is scary, that pervasive belief that people who are not white have racial identities, but people who are white just have identities. Stuff like that.</div>
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We need to stop being defensive about racism. We really really really have to stop thinking that an accusation of racism against a white person is on par, somehow, with the victimization of black and brown people BY racism. We need to accept the culpability that all white people have in how white supremacy remains the Way Things Are in America. We need to stop using terms like "racially charged" and stop pretending things like birtherism or "Build The Wall" or "Low IQ" or any of it is NOT what it definitely is. And, yes, that fucking hat. If you put it on, you've made your choice. </div>
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It'd be nice to think we were better than we were. We're not. The election of Donald Trump, a man who put out a full page ad in the <i>New York Times</i> demanding the execution of five teenage boys for a crime they did not commit and who has never once apologized for that, proves we are not. And the fact that no one - not Joe Scarborough or Jake Tapper or Chris Cillizza or any offended white journalist - demands a response from him about this shows how brilliantly insidious this whole thing is.</div>
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<br />megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-80995510025095897002019-01-03T16:48:00.000-08:002019-01-03T16:49:51.292-08:00Work and DeathA man I've worked with for many years died a few days ago - very young and very unexpectedly. And when I got the news that he died, I felt so sad because he was a warm, gentle, kind person and I'd always really liked him. I liked him but I didn't really know him all that well. He was someone I saw once a year at our user groups and someone with whom I had occasional conference calls. But those calls and conferences did span out over years and years.<br />
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These working relationships are strange things, aren't they? I was super close with my colleagues at the bar where I worked in my 20s and then really dear friends with the folks I worked with at my current place in my 30s. Shoot, I consider myself pretty close to the people I work with now, even if we really only ever socialize on business trips.<br />
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But then there are all those people whom you interact with from day-to-day - people you know how to make laugh and who make you laugh, people with known foibles that irritate or amuse you, people you go to for help, or know how to workaround when they're not helping. But these people aren't your friends and if they move on professionally, you might wish them well, but then will likely never speak to them again, except maybe on Facebook.<br />
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It's a weird fact of life, isn't it? How many people you'll know without really knowing.<br />
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A connection is a connection, though. These corporate relationships are, by definition, transactional, but they don't have to be only transactional. You can, you know, like people; appreciate the fact that you get to spend a little time with them, enjoy their company and give them a break when they fuck up or annoy you. Connect.<br />
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I mean, don't be weird about it. Corporate America is filled with weirdo pitfalls. Stay the hell out of those. But also, be kind. Maybe kindness mitigates the emptiness in corporate America just a little.<br />
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Seriously, though, don't be weird. And RIP to Brent. He was such a nice person.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-62919889794021250472019-01-02T16:42:00.001-08:002019-01-02T17:23:40.241-08:00The FoursEvery year I fall for the sucker bet of Resolutions. I was more sanguine about this in the past. But I was more sanguine about a lot of things in the past. I'm in the throes of perimenopause and Trump is president and I'm running on a patience deficit. Right now I'm annoyed that Google isn't recognizing perimenopause as a real word. What the hell, Google? I bet if perimenopause were a guy thing you'd recognize it as a real word and some actual treatment for it would exist AND be covered by every insurance plan.<br />
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Am I being paranoid? Perhaps Fairuza Balk from the seminal 90s movie <i>The Craft</i> could answer for me.<br />
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God, I loved that movie. Fairuza Balk is so 2018 mood up there, isn't she? Let's do another one. Fairuza Balk as 2019 mood:<br />
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AND WITH MY RIGHTEOUS FEMININE WRATH, I THUS RENDER WALKING, SUBTLE MAKEUP AND PLEASANT DEMEANOR OBSOLETE.<br />
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Back to, sigh, resolutions. I made one. I have this thing about the Fours. In which I deem a day successful wherein I have some accomplishment in one of the following four areas, annotated with how I have done today, which is Jan 2, AKA a day when most people are managing to stick to their resolutions.<br />
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1. Physical. I went to the gym today, dammit. I did a weight-lifting cycle wherein each particular muscle could be considered adequately worked out if I needed to make a weird face to get to the end of a set of 10. The weird face rule is mine. It is not endorsed by any medical professionals. But you're welcome to it. I'd also like to do something about this flat, white 49 yr old ass somewhere in 2019. But, I really think genetics are against me on this one.<br />
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2. Domestic. Gurl. I did laundry and washed the dog. Sure, I may have paid a lady to do the bulk of the housecleaning today. But it counts. Washing the dog is a pain in my rapidly deteriorating ovaries. I mean, not literally, But I'm all for "ovary" replacing "balls" in all cliches because female reproductive organs are mighty and balls are weak and the fact that we keep letting men pretend that "balls" (which are FAMOUSLY tender and easy to injure) means "strong" is responsible for at least 37% of the patriarchy.<br />
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3. Professional. Ugh. This is my least favorite because my job involves a lot of spreadsheets these days. I'm not saying there's not a real sense of accomplishment that comes with wrangling a series of disparate tasks and responsibilities, making other people's day go a little more smoothly, etc; but if I had a time machine I might go back and be someone who takes care of people. I like people (can't you tell from my dulcet, perimenopausal ((ITS A WORD, GOOGLE!)) tone?). And I like taking care of people. Corporate America offers good healthcare and good money (which is how I can afford to pay a lady to clean my house) - but it can feel empty, can't it? Anyway, I got to InBox 0 today. That's an accomplishment, especially after a long break.<br />
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4. Creative. I'd like to give myself a break and say that playing the piano or reading counts. But I don't think it does. I think I need to write things down to really exercise my creative muscle. And I would very much, this year, like to write stories. Not that these giffy collections of attempted hilarity aren't creative exercises. But it would be better to tell a story, I think. I just feel story-depleted. Is this a side effect of perimenopause? Does perimenopause cause a deficit of patience, your period to go haywire and story depletion? Someone should warn a gal.<br />
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Anyway, I resolve in 2019 to try and hit The Four every day. To write stories and work on my body and keep my professional and personal houses in order.<br />
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Of course, if I could find three other like-minded ladies it may render all of this moot., Hit me up if you're into it, but I get to be Fairuza Balk!<br />
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<br />megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-5332810209100214862018-12-03T19:18:00.000-08:002018-12-03T19:18:04.604-08:00I'm Drying Up, ManThis will meander. I apologize. President Pussygrabber stole the life out of me and I haven't had the inclination to blog and also I've been spending too much time on Twitter and am, therefore, suffering from a surfeit of opinion. There are too many opinions! This is my opinion! Who wants to hear more?<br />
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I know, I know! Not you.<br />
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Good burn, imaginary blog reader!<br />
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Anyway, another opinion (it's why we're here, folks). Wanna know the worst thing about getting old? The increasingly cacophonous drumbeat of your own mortality. That shit sucks.<br />
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Also, my skin is drying the eff out!<br />
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I am a moisturizing mofo. I have a <i>subscribe and save</i> Amazon deal for L'Oreal Revitalift Anti-Wrinkle + Firming Night Cream. The name of this product makes me angry. I don't care. I love it despite its dumb plus sign and false promises. And, look, I know that night cream and day cream are the same thing. I'm not stupid! I saw Patti Lupone as Helena Rubenstein in <i>War Paint </i>explicitly state this (the previous statement a total Tahani name drop because, you guys, I saw Patti Lupone on stage IRL and it was ah-mah-zing) but for some reason I'm happy with Ponds in the morning but I require something from a glass jar at night. I can handle the cheap plastic Ponds jar (is it a jar? does a jar come in plastic? aren't jars by nature glass? tub? it's a tub, isn't it?) after a good night's sleep, but when I'm nestled up in my comfy king-sized bed, nightcap beside me, soothing television show in front of me, I cannot with the plastic. I must have glass! MY PRECIOUS!<br />
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Amazon tells me that most people get one jar of L'Oreal Revitalift Anti-Wrinkle + Firming Night Cream a month.<br />
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Lololol, I blog scoffingly.<br />
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I get two jars a month. Plus the giant tub of Ponds (I've accepted the tub-iness of it) for morning and also other ad hoc face and neck moisturizing. There's a lot of ad hoc moisturizing. I work from home.<br />
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I also just indulged in the buy-3-get-3 deal on Ultra Shea Body Lotion from Bath and Bodyworks. I am bougie in the most basic ways imaginable. The shea is ultra which is so much better than shea that is moderate, self-effacing, discreet. I mean, obviously.<br />
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(shhh. I don't know what "shea" is, but I'm a sucker for it)<br />
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People tell me they can't stand how greasy they feel after they apply lotion. WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE? WHAT IS YOUR LIFE? I AM FLUMMOXED BY YOUR LOTIONLESS WAYS!. I apply lotion to my skin and it drinks it up like it's Nic Cage chasing an Oscar (note: Don gave me the start of this metaphor, but the surprise twist ending is my own. I AM PROUD). I emerge from a shower, dry off and slather myself in shea in all its ultra glory. It's wonderful. For about an hour. Then MOAR LOSHIN!<br />
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I inherited nice skin from my mother (thanks, Mom!). I am a sun avoider from way back. I wash my face once (not twice! Nevah twice!) a day. I take care of my skin. I have been the motherfucking Daenerys Targaryen of skin protection. DRACARYS, wrinkles and dry patches and sags. DRACARYS YOU ASSHOLES.<br />
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But I am knocking up on 50. This battle grows more pitched, more heated. I grow weary from the fight. Sometimes a bitch just wants to go to sleep, you know? But I'm going to fight on. I'll drink a lot more water, commit to at least 8 hours of sleep a night, enter into some Mephistophelean pact (does anyone have a Mephistophles guy?), ponder deeply whether I can afford to do whatever Nicole Kidman has done (I love Nicole Kidman, you guys! But there is a lot of science behind that smooth, poreless nature). You know, a normal skin care regimen.<br />
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Anyway. This is my first blogpost in forever. I hope you've enjoyed it. I'm going to go upstairs and apply more lotion.<br />
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megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-74306888575959028612018-09-10T18:27:00.000-07:002018-09-10T18:36:45.185-07:00It Got Real Mean This MorningOn Tuesday-Friday, during my morning make breakfast/clean kitchen/deal with dogs routine, I'll watch the previous night's <a href="https://www.nbc.com/late-night-with-seth-meyers" target="_blank"><i>Late Night with</i> <i>Seth Meyers</i></a>. I love that show. He seems like such a good guy; never leering or creepy; happy to elevate his women writers, smart and engaged, and angry about all the right things. His <i>Closer Look</i> segments are an invaluable tool for staying informed in these parlous times without being dispirited. And <i>Jokes Seth Can't Tell</i> is somehow simultaneously the most hilarious, most radical and most adorable 5 minutes of comedy. I just love him.<br />
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I just really want to live in a country that's not so mean. I am shook (I think that's what the kids say) at the blithe laughter that followed that incredibly mean exchange. I wish we, as Americans, had a national, civic inclination to kindness. But the "Screw him! I got mine!" voice just seems increasingly loud, increasingly influential in the way we legislate and politick and live. It's gross.</div>
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I read this quote about Jane Addams years ago which I can't remember exactly. I have googled and googled and I can't find the quote - but I'm sure that it was said of Jane Addams by a woman who worked with her and I think in an interview with the late, great Studs Terkel: Miss Addams never judged anyone because she knew what life could do to a person.</div>
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megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-10320587819639387212018-08-12T10:13:00.000-07:002018-08-12T10:14:14.148-07:00A Tale of Two Feminists and Their HairHere's a neat interview with the marvelous Lena Waithe, whom I think is just the cat's pajamas:<br />
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.<a href="https://twitter.com/LenaWaithe?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">@LenaWaithe</a> explains why she cut her hair: "I felt like I was holding onto a piece of femininity that would make the world feel comfortable with who I am" <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/HFPA?src=hash&ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">#HFPA</a> <a href="https://t.co/GTlxZJ11uO">pic.twitter.com/GTlxZJ11uO</a></div>
— Variety (@Variety) <a href="https://twitter.com/Variety/status/1027739339956969472?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">August 10, 2018</a></blockquote>
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Next up, here's the <a href="https://www.instyle.com/hair/i-embraced-my-gray-hair-no-one-else-did?utm_source=facebook.com&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=social-button-sharing" target="_blank">story</a> of a lady who stopped coloring her hair and the incredibly rude people who commented disparagingly on her decision. I found myself thinking a few times in the course of this story that she must have made up some of these anecdotes, but I also know the things people have felt at liberty to say to me and that there are some rude motherfuckers out there. Folks, don't make rude personal comments to people. I shouldn't have to tell you that. God!<br />
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These stories are similar, right? One woman cut off her hair, one woman stopped dying her hair. I'd be lying if I didn't say I preferred the Lena story to the InStyle story (not a big fan of the "here's how I been done treated wrong by the world" rhetorical device). But I will note that both are about changes that a woman made and not about Changes Women Need to Make.<br />
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But the reactions went elsewhere. Over at the post where I read the Lena Waithe story, there were many commenters bemoaning how attached some women are to their long hair and how they haven't embraced the liberty that really short hair provides. A friend of mine shared the gray-haired lady's story, saying that women who don't dye their hair are "slaves" to an unfair beauty standard. And then when I objected to that she was thoughtful and kind but also implied that those of us who don't choose to embrace the gray are sacrificing our authority. Ma'am!<br />
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<li>Short skirts</li>
<li>High heels</li>
<li>"Vocal fry"</li>
<li>Slutty clothes</li>
<li>Overly modest clothes</li>
<li>Gym clothes</li>
<li>Black clothes (confession: this is one I've heard personally many many times)</li>
<li>Colorful rainboots (confession: I've objected to that one before)</li>
<li>Visible bra straps</li>
<li>Bras</li>
<li>Nylons</li>
<li>Bare legs</li>
<li>Losing weight</li>
<li>Gaining weight</li>
<li>Walking fast</li>
<li>Walking slow</li>
<li>Saying "sorry"</li>
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Lookit: Men (shoot, PEOPLE) reflexively trust other men in positions of authority more because men have been the sole occupants at seats of authority for the entire history of western civilization. It's not female voices or clothes or style or any other form of female presentation that keeps us from power. It's not because we've sacrificed authority in pursuit of approval. It's because men have held jealously, and thoughtlessly, onto it.<br />
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I just heard Jon Lovett do an opening rant about Joe Lieberman (who is execrable) on this week's <a href="https://art19.com/shows/lovett-or-leave-it" target="_blank">Lovett or Leave It</a> in which he explained how Joe Lieberman, all by his little self, killed the Medicare Buy-In for 55 yr old + Americans. Had he not killed it, people 55 and over wouldn't have to keep killing themselves to hold onto their corporate health insurance and young people would be paying lower premiums as older people cost more to keep healthy, and thus drive premiums up. Joe Lieberman was working for the insurance companies who are, I genuinely believe, more evil that Philip Morris.<br />
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Speaking of which, I also read an <a href="https://splinternews.com/government-healthcare-is-saving-my-mums-life-1827634101" target="_blank">article</a> this morning over on Splinter about a British woman who was diagnosed with lung cancer and who is on the path to healing due to government-provided health care. She will not end up broke. She won't end up scrabbling to come up with thousands of dollars to pay for life-requiring medicine. She'll just get better.<br />
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On the liberal scale, I'm pretty far left. I also believe, though, in incrementalism and that you can get away with being more liberal in New York and Chicago than you can in West Virginia. I think expanding already popular programs is a more practical path towards healthcare-for-all than blowing up what we could get into law despite the nasty little corporate shitheels like Joe Lieberman. I could well be wrong and I'm happy to have that argument. This isn't about that, though. This is about how my party, the Democratic party, has a long history of letting the right intimidate them not into moderating radical leftish positions, but rather into radicalizing moderate positions.<br />
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Let's all remember that it doesn't matter what a democrat running for office says; the toadies at the GOP propaganda network will lie about it. For instance: not one democrat is agitating for open borders. The right-wing noise machine (led by our feckless, traitorous president) says they are on the daily. Not one democrat is agitating to ban guns, but likely every member of the NRA believes they are because they are being told they are by rightwing liars.<br />
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I got some ragrets, you guys, about my sign at the #KeepFamiliesTogether march. Here's what it said:<br />
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When I made it, I was feeling good, but there was this little voice in the back of my head going "Meg, are you sure this is a good idea?" And then I answered (as one does) "I don't care about those horrible women!" And then my little voice said, "Well, that's not quite what I meant..." and then I said "shhh, I'm watching TV" (I was watching TV by that point).</div>
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When I got to the march, I felt great about my sign because all kinds of folks were asking to take a picture and telling me how great it was and then about 30 or 45 minutes into it, I realized that all the people telling me that it was great and asking to take a picture where also white ladies and my little voice said, "You picking this up yet?" And instead I went to have a beer with my smart friends who did not have problematic signs.</div>
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Gurls and boys, I have often said this of myself: I am smart, but I am not quick. It often takes me waaaaay too long to get to understand things. Fr'instance, it took me until the middle of this week, far too many days after the march, to realize what my little voice was trying to say.</div>
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That sign up there? That is some peak white feminism. I carried that message into literally the safest environment I could, and then toted it around so that other white ladies could congratulate me (and by extension, themselves) on how much better we are than Permit Patty and Barbecue Becky. Oof. That sign was so self-serving and I have regerts. My browser keeps trying to autocorrect my misspellings. I am being funny, Autocorrect. You don't know my life!</div>
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It does look a little low-rent and poorly done. But it also does not have a problematic message. This sign doesn't put me in the middle of the equation and, despite looking as though it were made by a third grader operating under a pretty tight deadline, that makes it a much better message.<br />
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Live and learn, white feminists. We live and we learn and try to get better.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-10117813469786450102018-07-03T18:35:00.003-07:002018-07-03T18:35:31.324-07:00Acting and ReactingWhen I was in the UK last week, a male friend of mine asked me what I thought about the new <a href="https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/5623843/upskirting-meaning-definition-photos-criminal-offence-uk/" target="_blank">upskirt photo law</a> making its way through Parliament. I told him I thought it was great and that I hoped all those creepy motherfuckers got ticketed past their ability to pay for their ISP. He shrugged and said "I just don't get why the women don't just give him a slap on the face and walk away."<br />
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I loved that loud messy queen and I loved her especially in the reunion show when all the queens were dissecting her following a fight with Eureka she said "Everyone's telling me how to react and no one's telling her how to act."<br />
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Oh, that is concise and well-said, n'est-ce pas?<br />
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Before we start instructing someone on how they ought to react, first let's ask ourselves "Do I have the necessary context for an informed opinion?" If it's a matter of groping, catcalling, upskirt photos, etc and you are a man, gurl, trust me: you don't. There are some women who are up to the task of calling it out (like The Vixen!), slapping the groper's hand away and there are some who aren't. Speaking personally, I hate it when men put their hands on me, say gross things to me, etc., and have for almost 40 years (gentlemen, for context, be advised that this tends to start for girls around 10 or 11, or, if they're people of color, earlier). I don't feel secure or strong enough to slap his hand away or call him out. I shrink and disappear into myself and am only eager to get the fuck away.<br />
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A story: I was walking down the street with Laney when she was 11 and we were holding hands. A carful of dudes catcalled us because they thought we were a lesbian couple. This happened four years ago and I still wonder if I <i>reacted</i> right.<br />
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But you know what, fuck that! My reaction isn't the point - their <i>action</i> is. And that's all I'm willing to discuss anymore.<br />
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Because, ladies, we all learned what happens when we pay more attention to our reaction than their actions, right?<br />
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<b>[INSERT GIF OF DONALD FUCKING TRUMP DOING OR SAYING SOMETHING SEXIST AND HORRIBLE BUT I'M NOT GOING TO PUT ONE HERE BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND TO SEE HIS STUPID FUCKING FACE] </b></div>
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Remember, when confronted with bad behavior, let's all concern ourselves more with the ACTION rather than the REACTION. Be like The Vixen. I kind of love her.<br />
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megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-38723402083114376822018-06-11T16:58:00.000-07:002018-06-11T17:02:10.116-07:00I Can't DecideThe hardest thing about being a grown-up is decisions. I have decided that this is the hardest thing. This is the last decision I am capable of making today.<br />
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One of my coworkers tells me that his fantasy job is to have a hot dog cart on the beach where the only decisions are ketchup or mustard. I'm a vegetarian and that sounds amazing.<br />
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Sometimes my husband and I will be trying to decide what to have for dinner and he'll say "Whatever you want, baby" and that's about the only time when I want to divorce him.<br />
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I might ask my daughter what she wants to do on a Saturday and she'll give me a teenage shrug and so I'll make a decision which is then invariably disappointing and that's about the only time I want to run away (That's a lie. I'm living in Trump's America and want to run away literally all of the time).<br />
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Throughout my average working day, I'm met with "what do you think about..." or "what should we do about" roughly every 13 seconds. Of late, when I hear that, all I think is "mustard." I prefer mustard to ketchup. Of this I am abidingly certain. I may waffle, though, between spicy brown and yellow. I never say "mustard" aloud, but I am always thinking it.<br />
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I was getting a pedicure on Saturday (this is the most first world problems post ever, isn't it?) and the dude poking aggressively at my toe cuticles told me I was too sensitive when I flinched (I should find a better pedicure place but then that's just another decision and also they have a parking lot which makes it so easy) and then he asked if the pedicure was all I wanted.<br />
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"Are you sure?" he said. "Something about your eyebrows, maybe?"<br />
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Do I have to make decisions about my eyebrows now? I never thought about my eyebrows in the 80s, 90s or 00s. For some reason this decade I'm asked to start paying attention to them and my head is too full and if I agree to do "something about my eyebrows" all I'll be able to think is "mustard" and no one, no matter how gentle they are with toenail cuticles, will know how to translate "mustard" into some eyebrow shape.<br />
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I think I'll make one more decision and decide not to give a shit about my eyebrows. I wear spectacles (that's right, I said "spectacles" because I am classy) every day so who can even see my dumb eyebrows?<br />
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Mustard is superior to ketchup, tho. And your eyebrows are probably fine.<br />
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<br />megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-35278096110357499652018-06-10T17:21:00.002-07:002018-06-10T17:21:59.722-07:00Internet-ishA few days ago, I shared this silly internet meme about how to find your British royal name. It was goofy and I mostly shared it because both my grandmothers were named Mary and that is a thing that Irish Americans probably all have in common so that's fun. Three separate people jumped on the comments thread to tell me how I was sharing a thing that gives people the answers to your various security questions (name of your first pet, street where you grew up, etc).<br />
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Tip: don't "actually" someone until you've read up the thread, guys! I can only be scolded for the same thing so many times before I get huffy!<br />
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Anyhoo, I told all these guys that I felt like those questions were easy enough to find out from anyone and besides, who the hell is asking for a grandparent's first name on a security question?<br />
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And then a couple of days later I was signing up for some dumb account and that was the security question they asked.<br />
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So, I felt dumb. And I felt dumb in the way that I really hate to feel dumb, because I like to think my Internet IQ is pretty high (unlike my Marvel IQ because I still don't know if Paul Bettany is a mutant or a person or a robot or what) and falling for some dumb phishing thing like that makes me feel old and stupid and out of touch.<br />
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I come from a generation that's not particular exercised about privacy. I still remember going full Navin Johnson when I got my first apartment in Chicago - excitedly cracking open the white pages and staring all starry-eyed at my name, address and phone number and feeling like a Real Girl Now! And now I live in a world where I alternately feel like I'm way too worried about privacy and not nearly worried enough and I can feel both of these things at the same time especially since it means I don't have to answer the phone if I don't know who's calling (Seriously! Remember when you had to pick up the phone to find out who was on the other end? That was the worst!)<br />
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I don't know. I have no answers. Do you? And, while I'm asking, did we know about those infinity stones the whole time and can't Dr. Strange just send us back in time or something? If you have any questions about rotary phones or dating in the 1990s, send them this way. I would like to feel expert on something again.<br />
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I have a theory about why I get so mad these days so easily: I think for the first 45ish years of my life I lived in that go along to get along space; I just kind of went with it that the women will bear the responsibility for making the men feel good, that what the women do will never be taken as seriously as what the men do, and that men will just always be the ones in charge.</div>
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Ann Dowd is a brilliant character actress who is doing incredible work playing a character who is not just complicit in a deeply misogynist government, but also a true believer who is among its most effective enforcers. The analogy is clear to anyone with even a passing interest in the show. But to Jake Tapper, the only material fact about Ann Dowd is that he himself would not care to have sex with her. I am so offended on Ann Dowd's behalf!</div>
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You guys, this interview was a couple of weeks ago. I mean way too long and way too in passing for me to still be mad. But I'm still mad! I'm still so angry at how he pleased he was with himself, how confident he'd earned a brave boy cookie for his whole "I'm just being honest" shtick. And I'm angry that the Pod Save guys, who all knew it was crap, just let it pass without commenting.</div>
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And I write all this knowing that as a white, straight, cisgendered, able-bodied, middle-class woman, I'm operating at a pretty low difficulty setting. But so long as Donald Fucking Trump, who is the Platonic ideal of the terrible American male, is our president, I can't stop being mad. </div>
megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4508038919087785021.post-5544567413815356802018-03-28T17:44:00.003-07:002018-03-28T17:44:35.763-07:00Roseanne. Hard PassI consume a lot of pop culture - more so than the average bear. Some people are impressed with my pop culture consumption, others think I must get absolutely nothing done. Here's a quick bullet list to how I consume so much:<br />
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<li>There are only a few shows a week that I watch while not doing anything else. Currently, those shows are <i>Atlanta</i>, <i>RuPaul's Drag Race, The Americans</i> (starts tonight!), <i>Superstore</i> and <i>The Middle</i>. These are the only shows airing that demand full attention. Some due to their extreme quality (<i>Atlanta </i>and <i>The Americans) </i>others because I just have a real good time with them (<i>RPDR</i> and <i>Superstore</i>), and one purely for the nostalgia (<i>The Middle</i>). Due to the great advances of DVR-i-tude, this only adds up to about 2.5 hours of television a week</li>
<li>The other TV things I consume happen while I'm doing other things - I may watch <i>The Goldbergs </i>while I'm doing the dishes. I'll check into <i>AP Bio</i> during a workout. </li>
<li>I waste no time on cable news. I've long held the position that cable news causes cancer. It's bad for you in a million ways. I like Chris and Joy and Rachel too! If there's something really good on one of their shows, it'll be on Facebook the next day. Cable news is a terrible way to stay informed and a blight on America. The Sunday shows are worse. I get my news from the <a href="https://crooked.com/" target="_blank">Crooked Media</a> guys, <a href="https://wonkette.com/" target="_blank">Wonkette</a>, <a href="https://www.esquire.com/news-politics/politics/" target="_blank">Charlie Pierce</a> and <a href="https://talkingpointsmemo.com/" target="_blank">Josh Marshall</a>. All these sources are proudly liberal, but free of bullshit. Recommend. </li>
<li>I follow pop culture blogs and twitter that recommend the good stuff to watch. My all time favorite of these is <a href="http://www.pajiba.com/" target="_blank">Pajiba</a>. I've turned many of you over to them. They are smart and funny, staunchly anti-racist and feminist, and they have great taste. </li>
<li>Also, I fucking hate it when everyone is talking about something and I don't know what it is. I have never understood the sense of superiority that some people seem to feel when they don't know something that everyone else is talking about. Like, why do people show up on a Facebook thread about <i>Game of Thrones</i> talking about how they don't watch that show? What's the point of that? No one thinks you're cool, buddy. </li>
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All of this is lead up to the Hard Fucking Pass I'm going to give <i>Roseanne</i>. I watched about 10 minutes of it last night and then clicked off. Jackie was like the worst caricature of a Hillary voter and Roseanne was like the gentlest NYT profile of the misunderstood Trump voter. And you know? Fuck. That.</div>
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You don't get to say 'I'm not racist! Look at my cute black granddaughter" and support Mr. "Very Fine People on Both Sides," Mr. "Get Those Sons of Bitches off the Field." You don't get to say "I'm not homophobic! I support my genderqueer grandson" at the same time you support the man responsible for the pointless, cruel transgender ban in the military. </div>
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I opened my fridge tonight to put the leftover pasta away and there it sat in its clear plastic container with a red top, right next to 6 or 7 other fridge things in the same, albeit differently sized plastic containers with red tops. It was beautiful. The order and sensibleness of all my fridge things stored in tidy, dishwasher-safe containers that all look the same, albeit differently sized? I enjoyed a palpable, authentic frisson of pleasure.<br />
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I almost never write in this blog anymore. I haven't played my piano in months. I had this plan to finally turn my novel into a proper eBook and even realized how it should begin (that only took 10 years or so). But I haven't done any of it.<br />
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Instead, I spend all my free brainspace stuffing it full of information about L'il Duce and the chaos he's engendered.<br />
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I don't want to know who Andrew McCabe is. Sarah Huckabee Sanders, that liar and sociopath, doesn't deserve the space in my brain she takes up. Fuck Jefferson Davis Sessions, that racist old ferret.<br />
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God, I loved it when I only sort of knew who Eric Holder was.<br />
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I'm so angry at the people who live in that Fox News bubble (or, worse, just liked the cut of Trump's jib or something) who gleefully slouched us into this Bethlehem.<br />
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I had a Republican friend who really hates Trump tell me recently that she likes Paul Ryan. How could ANYONE LIKE PAUL RYAN!?!?! Paul Ryan cares about nothing nothing nothing but increasing the wealth for the thinnest sliver of already wealthy Americans. He has no other policy position. No other guiding moral principle. He is a nice p90X body casing an absolutely depleted morality. There is nothing of substance about him at all.<br />
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But he says he hates abortion. He doesn't hate abortion. He doesn't care about abortion. But he knows he'll get votes from people who do and so people vote for him. The same people who, sorrynotsorry, can't be bothered to wrap their heads around the manifestly obvious truth that the only real way to reduce abortions is to increase access to birth control and sex ed.<br />
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See also the gun people, who just don't care that our children are being massacred at the altar of their gunny cult. They like it when Mitch McConnell fellates an AR-57 so much they don't care that he's the guy who keeps you desperately tethered to a corporate health care policy that couldn't give a shit about keeping you alive. Their concern begins and ends and how grossly they can profit off poor and middle-class people. The same people who keep fucking voting for them!<br />
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I don't want to know that Rex Tillerson laid waste to the state department that Hillary Clinton and John Kerry (but especially Hillary) spent eight years laying solid diplomatic ground on. HRC jetted around the world and worked her ass off to keep us safe. But to the folks who love Trump, she's Cruella DeVil meets Lady MacBeth meets an Ugly Stepsister, or some other bullshit sexist trope that the stupidest among us use to organize their lives.<br />
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I'm just so mad all the time. Aren't you? How does anyone have time to do anything but refresh Twitter and be mad (and be terrified and then mad again... mad is easier than terrified).<br />
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I soothe myself with bourbon, escapist tv and the calming, consoling, palliative joy of matching tupperware. Or Rubbermaid. I don't give a shit.<br />
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By the way, don't give me any advice. Please. I am not soliciting advice. I'm venting. I'll give you advice instead: buy matching tupperware and fake orderliness in a terrifyingly chaotic world.megbonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03664108272376975200noreply@blogger.com